hmm

im in a rather foul mood today.
i was in a good mood, but it changed, and heres why: i had plans tonight when i finished work and i just got a call from the girl i was sposed to go out with and she was like ohh im tired im going to bed sorry..
like, she knew that i didnt finish till 11 so maybe she should have just said straight out, i dont think so.. but it was HER idea to do something when i finished..
and its not just that, but on the social side of things i really hate america. i dont understand the people here, and i dont understand the other aupairs. i dont understand why no one is inviting me to do anything and they all DO things, surely they dont all just sit around doing nothing? its making me a bit miserable, not having any friends over here. and i really dont have ANY friends. except for in FLORIDA. i wish that i had this family, just they lived in florida. or the girls from florida lived up here. i dont know. it just makes me more homesick, because all i wanna do is talk to everyone back home.
i've never been in this situation where i've had NO FRIENDS. like, back home, i always had atleast one. but i've got no one here. i mean, there are a couple of girls that i like, but i always have to call them first and organise stuff with them or call them just to get invited to anything.
i dont know. i just really bummed me out that my plans for tonight were cancelled. im just getting very lonely over here. it really makes me want to come home. why is it so hard over here? i've never been so bored in my life.
only 40 1/2 weeks to go.